rainbow magic

I found these pictures by the same person on flickr
I think it's the most amazing thing I've ever seen

a parent's relationship with their young child can be so mysterious and full of meaning

cat pictures

in other news,
there's a cat that keeps coming to our deck window.
i don't like petting it too much without washing my hands after because it is full of scaly white dandruff and it really grosses me out.

it's a stray cat that according to our landlord has been coming around the house for a long time.

however, the cat is totally cute and wants attention so bad.

matt and I gave him milk and food so he'll be coming back again forever.

we named it eli

all night long (all night)

Uhhhhh.. my laptop is working again. It stopped giving power when something happened to the power adapter cord and I think I fixed it.

I want money. Victoria is OK but I am so bored and I need attention. I went to lambrick park church for 5 minutes and left before the service started. while I was sitting by myself this 30-year-old looking guy walked out of "the prayer room" (there was an actual sign beside the room) and starting talking to me in a really exaggerated "caring", direct & possessive tone of voice and (seriously) had one foot on the edge of my chair. I think he had a goatee, or was balding but I would've barfed if I looked at his face. Questions he asked:
-who are you
-why are you here
-is this your first time
-are you from around here
-soo.. what are you about.. like what is your ultimate dream

after lying a lot, i kind of told him that I just wanted to sit here and politely told him these questions were none of his business. He just left and went to go talk to a group of smugly secure suburban teenage boys.

i had just finished text emailing an email to a friend, and the whole situation was really weird.

so yeah, i left and then went home and watched Hook and then got high and thought about my life and kind of moaned and got irritated about everything.

apparently there is a liquor store trailer near cook st. market that sells $7 bottles of wine (red and white). Hoooooly.




I might have got another job at safeway. I biked about 25 Kms to Sidney and rolled smokes while looking at the ocean. Then I got a call from Brittney from Safeway and she asked for my Social Insurance Number which I think I got wrong. She's going to forward it to Human Resources. I asked her if "this means I got the job" and she was like "well... we're interested in you. We just need to confirm a few things."

I have been relying on Matt who owes me money to basically get by, but I guess it's another fun adventure being broke and realizing how fruggle money spending is.

Ohh man.. First paycheck I'll get my pictures from the wedding developed and then I'll buy a bottle of wine and drink it in the park. I'll take pictures...

Victoria is cool right? I mostly feel trapped by the fact that I have to pay to get off the island. I seem to be surrounded by people that are "into" really conventionally middle of the road alternative lifestyles.. like being in a reggae band or being in ridiculously great shape.

I miss being ruthlessly east coast

epic bike ride

A few days ago I went to Colwood to buy a $300 CCM fixed gear bike for $65. UsedVictoria.com = amazing.

Today, Matthew (my brother) and I biked downtown to go to the library. We got in a bit of a fight because I can be a total asshole to him sometimes. He parted ways from me, which was totally fair.

I spent time at the library, read a few magazines and then embarked on this unplanned bike trip:
http://maps.google.com/maps?f=d&saddr=Southgate+St+%4048.417550,+-123.362530&daddr=Heywood+Way+%4048.412155,+-123.361103+to:Dallas+Rd+%4048.407068,+-123.348077+to:Hollywood+Crescent+%4048.409093,+-123.330197+to:King+George+Terrace+%4048.409084,+-123.318362+to:Beach+Dr+%4048.412563,+-123.308147+to:48.462706,-123.297544+to:Juniper+Pl+%4048.493520,+-123.326030&hl=en&geocode=1731158819420382868,48.417550,-123.362530%3B398015106463711088,48.412155,-123.361103%3B15841534981158863702,48.407068,-123.348077%3B12274409073417681212,48.409093,-123.330197%3B1208252022984816949,48.409084,-123.318362%3B3241049870219359165,48.412563,-123.308147%3B880093293559864686,48.493520,-123.326030&mra=dpe&mrcr=0&mrsp=6&sz=15&via=1,2,3,4,5,6&sll=48.461966,-123.297544&sspn=0.013603,0.027637&ie=UTF8&ll=48.488425,-123.322649&spn=0.013596,0.027637&t=h&z=15
If anything, I'm happy to have moved here so I can park my bike down a hidden path that leads down to a semi-private public beach with a view of a lighthouse.

Feels very good on my soul

Tell me everything good or bad about your life

sometimes this is all you need

spending some rainy hours listening to "take me to the mardi gras" and "give me the night" on repeat & then making my new favorite creation: the peanut butter & apple tortilla wrap. holy. crap.

most amazing/easy snack of my life
seriously make. it. right. now.



by the way.. good lord all I want is a portable tape player with speakers that has an input so I can play my ipod portably as well as my tape collection.

value village only seems to frequently carry used electronics dating past the mid to late 90s.. and all of that stuff is pretty much crap. I don't want to shell out $100 to buy a sweet deck. :(

I want to get stoned in the park and listen to my ipod/tapes/whatever

I wish VICTORIA had one of these:

middle of the road

k, so my blog is so boring...

i went to a wedding on the weekend in abbotsford. self-rightous whory overcrowded place christians vs. punjabis

fight to the YAWN

I got stoned with Dale's cousins, because I knew my way to the liquor store. I wish I took pictures. My head told me I couldn't because they were probably not going to be cool with it and would think I was weird. we found a quiet spot in a back alley and sat on the steps of an apartment building.

i also spent time with a wonderful friend from montreal. he is wonderful because he let me stay the night several times and we had good conversations.

every time I go to church or a wedding I realize how much it tries to suck people in emotionally in order to manipulate them into something.. it's like this forced distant obligation of the leaders to organize it. It reminds me of television producers or something.. and then afterwards just talking to people face to face is so awkward because I don't know if I should judge them or if they are judging me.

Actually I'm letting go of this a lot and trying to focus in on what is good for me, rather then what I want or what I can react to.

i don't knowwwwwwwwwwww
christians in these parts are just a club of people that help each other and I like that sometimes, but it makes me feel bad that I want to do whatever I want sometimes. but I feel guilty because being selfish has made me so unhappy...

i look at people that are OK and accept their limitations and I really want that.

holy shit fucked up uhghhhghhghhg

victoria

so far the new move to victoria has been a blessed adventure. I had a painting job for two days that I quit because I had to travel 3 hours to get to the work site, and my boss wouldn't drive me and made me take the bus. So now I'm working in a coffee shop, although I haven't started yet and I'm a little nervous.

I haven't made any friends yet, but it's given me the chance to just watch movies and explore downtown and all of that.

I am really hoping I find someone I can be in a relationship with. I have open eyes and an open heart even if it might get broken... I have never been in a relationship before with anyone, nor have I done anything sexually. I've been a shy boy, living in the library of my mind.

I took this picture yesterday morning of the view from my backyard. I live on a bluff that overlooks the ocean.